It has now been four days since I stopped the progesterone, estrogen, prednisone, folic acid and Omega 3s. Today marks 5 weeks and I am waiting for my body to do something, anything to signal that it is letting go of this doomed pregnancy.
In the mean time, I have:
gone on long runs, ordered in sushi (I lied and told the lady on the phone it was for 2 people when she asked how many it was for -- to be fair, I did eat the 28 pieces in two separate sittings), drank wine, consumed copious amounts of (unpasteurized?) goat cheese, ordered a large latte every morning at work, popped a few aspirin, and lifted many heavy boxes. While long runs historically cause me to spot bright red when I am not pregnant, running under these circumstances does not seem to produce the same effect.
I will get a beta drawn in the morning to see where things stand. In the mean time, this is beginning to feel a little ominous. If this isn't going to work out (it's not) I was really hoping it would at least be chemical and that my body would take care of things itself.
I can't help but think that it would be a signature A. move to be diagnosed with an ectopic the week we are supposed to move abroad.
I'm sorry things aren't moving along more quickly, especially with the big move coming up. I wish things would just go the way we want them to. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh, I really hope that this isn't an ectopic. A chemical pregnancy is heartbreaking enough. I fully support long runs, lattes and lots and lots of cheese. Please continue to take good care of yourself.
ReplyDelete:-( I wish you didn't have to go through this. I hope things start moving along for you. Praying that it's not an ectopic. I did have a chemical pregnancy recently with pretty slow dropping betas and it dragged out longer than most of mine, but not for too long. Big hugs and sending prayers your way. <3
ReplyDeleteOh hon, I wish I could say or do something. This is so unfair and difficult. I am sorry you are dealing with this unknown and have so much waiting to do. I pray that things pick-up so you can move on. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteThank guys. Still waiting to bleed but the good news is that my beta is going down, so it seems like things are headed in the "right" direction.
ReplyDeleteHello, here from LFCA. Just wanted to say that I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. I hope the hard part goes by quickly and you can find peace soon.
ReplyDeleteComing here from LFCA. I am so very sorry for your loss. Giving you strength to go through this.
ReplyDeleteI wish you didn't have to go through this on top of the tremendous loss of your precious twins, Aminadav and Naava. I'm sorry that life is so unfair. Wishing you strength and sending you healing thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am here from LFCA and wanted to say how very sorry I am!! Many many prayers to you!!
ReplyDeleteVisiting from ICLW and I saw on your comments your beta going down...I am glad it looks like your body is taking care of things..I hope this continues so you can move forward. Praying for you!
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