Jul 1, 2011
9dp3dt = BFN
I tested this morning with a FRER (from my coveted American stash- I only break out the good guys for special occassions!) and of course it was stark white. I was expecting it since I feel normal and my OHSS symptoms never returned. I am glad I did it - I need a couple of days to emotionally process the failure before I get the infamous beta phone call. You could say I should still hold out some hope but hoping for a miracle at this point (a miracle being not just a positive beta, but a viable pregnancy) just feels cruel and dishonest to myself. I had a late implanter once. For me, I know what that means. That baby's due date was yesterday but I am no closer to holding a live baby in my arms. So it goes. Also, thankfully my beta was moved up 2 days to 12dp3dt (Monday).