I'm sorry I've been so lousy about writing the past week. I am just feeling very down and woe-is-me. I am quite certain none of the 3 embryos took. I had my progesterone check yesterday (7dp3dt) and my progesterone was lower than it's been during previous cycles, so it would seem to me that clearly there isn't anything going on in there making endogenous progesterone. Aside from the estrogen headaches, I have been completely symptomless, no cramping, no twinges, nada.
I just wish we had some insight into why my body doesn't get pregnant so that there could be something for us to fix. I feel like IVF isn't really fixing anything, it's just improving the odds by allowing us to produce many more eggs and also embryos in a given period of time than we could ever generate naturally. I just feel so broken and fundamentally not like a real woman.
oh, sweetie, you are real woman, no matter what! You are defined by so much more than this IF b*llsh*t. Really, you are.
ReplyDeleteAll that said, I totally agree with you about IVF. It increases the odds. Now we just have to be on the right side of those statistics.
Oh honey.... :-( Don't give up yet! Hang in there. I'm right here crossing all fingers and toes for you!
ReplyDeletePlease dont give up yet.Sometimes life surprises you!
ReplyDeleteIt's too early to give up yet! Hang in there - you never know... I had absolutely no symptoms prior to finding out I was pregnant...
ReplyDeleteI agree, don't give up yet! The progesterone doesn't mean anything. My doctor didn't even have me get it checked during my FET because he said the number was purely from the supplements and externally controlled.
ReplyDeleteDon't give up hope yet! It is still so early. Hang in there! I'll be thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteNo matter what, you ARE a real woman!! Don't allow yourself to define yourself based on your ability to procreate. It is so difficult to go down that dark path, I've been there. Hang in there, it's not over yet. I am rooting for you and know that you will be okay no matter the outcome. Ivf does improve your odds but sometimes you just have to keep trying.
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I know how you feel, broken is pretty much the perfect description. I'm sorry this FET didn't work, and I'll have good hopes for you with FET #2.
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