Oct 31, 2012

the (great) unexpected

So…this is very strange for me. This was something I wasn't anticipating at all. I actually feel pretty uncomfortable writing about it. In my last post, I mentioned that before getting back into the IVF grind I was doing a long-shot Clomid/Prednisone cycle, just to help pass the time.

I also mentioned it was a bit of an experiment - I thought it was a little uncanny that both of the 2/5 IVF transfers when we used Prednisone I conceived. With IVF, there are so many variables, it was obviously impossible to speculate too much about the role of the Prednisone. I did wonder, though, if our problem was really of the implantation/autoimmune variety, whether I might be able to get pregnant with minimal intervention if I was on Prednisone.

It still obviously seemed like a total long-shot with my history -- after 6 IUIs and 5 IVF transfers you don't realistically expect to get KU with $60 worth of pills. But it happened. Y and I are both shocked that this far-fetched experiment to pass the time before our upcoming IVF consults following the epic Canadian wait has worked…at least so far.

Even if this cycle doesn't result in a successful pregnancy, I think it has taught us a lot. We really need to re-address some of our most basic assumptions about the nature of my infertility and its treatment -- specifically, considering the autoimmune angle.

I got a positive hpt at 11dpo, the day after I wrote my last post. Today my first beta at 13dpo was 146. Obviously, we are feeling very cautious and guarded. We've experienced so many different ways of pregnancy not working out, it feels like a bit of a mine field and it is really hard to have any expectations at all, especially this early.

Also, I have been spotting the last 2 days which makes me pretty nervous, though the first beta helped to allay my fears a little bit. I go back on Friday for beta 2. Please keep us in your thoughts that this turns out well.

I am feeling really guarded in sharing the news this time around even on the blog -- still trying to process this really surprising but obviously extremely welcome news myself.

Here we go again. Let's do this.

22 comments:

  1. Oh my!!!! This is so amazing. I'm really happy for you and cautiously optimistic of course. I'll be thinking of you and Y as beta #2 approaches.

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  2. Wow. To think $60 worth of pills might have been the ticket! How cool is that? Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

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  3. Oh, oh, I will be keeping you in my thoughts for sure. I hope this works for you. I really, really hope.

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  4. Holy moley!!!! This is wonderful news! And an interesting result that adds to weight to your argument. Fingers are crossed and hoping you get some answers.

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  5. Congratulations! I'm glad that you chose to share your experience here. I often wondered during our treatments, if we were really looking at things in the right way, but despite my doubts I never questioned my doctors. I am interested to hear what your doctor thinks helped you achieve this pregnancy. I'll keep my fingers crossed that your luck continues. Take care!

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  6. How amazing! I truly hope this is your golden ticket to parenthood.

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  7. Yes!!!!!!!!! You are in my thoughts... Hang tight til Friday. Fingers crossed that this experiment will result in a healthy baby in your arms, once and for all. Hugs.

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  8. Congratulations! I really hope that this is it for you.

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  9. Congratulations! Fingers crossed for some great numbers on Friday.

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  10. Oh my goodness.... CONGRATS!!!! Prayers for a sticky baby and a great number on Friday.

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  11. A cautious congratulations... although I must say, I am so filled with hope for you! I so hope this is IT for you guys.

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  12. I will be thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way!

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  13. What wonderful news! I am so happy for you both and extremely glad you didn't have to go through IVF. That is all of our wish come true. I pray everything goes smoothly and those numbers keep rising. Congrats!!!

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  14. Amazing news!! Thinking of you and hoping good things for the next beta!

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  15. Full of hope for you A. and absolutely thrilled to read yours news.
    Keep safe xo

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  16. שולחת חיבוק וברכות להריון בריא! בעזרת ה" מקווה רק להמשך הודעות טובות :)

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  17. I'm so glad your experiment worked! I hope things continue to go well and the next beta is great and the rest of the pregnancy is wonderful! It definitely sounds like there is at least a component that is autoimmune related to your IF. I hope your OB/Dr realizes that and does whatever it takes to make this work for your guys. It's good to know that you don't necessarily need to go the route of IVF to conceive.

    Sending you positive thoughts and hopeful wishes!

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  18. OMG CONGRATS!! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

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  19. OMG, such awesome news! I'm hoping that this is your take home baby- what a story it would make! Are you going to see one of these REs who treats the autoimmune component through this pregnancy?

    Over the moon for you!

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  20. What wonderful news! That is a strong beta! Hope it keeps increasing! Hugs!

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  21. Thanks for all the good wishes, guys!

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