Jul 24, 2011

18 cells heavier

Today was our embryo transfer for our FET. We put back three 3-day embryos, a 5B, 6B, and 7B and now all there is really left to do is hope and pray that 1 or 2 (or 3?!?! eek) will stick and thrive and blossom into souls we will have the privilege of meeting again come spring.

I wrote before how the original plan was to thaw the straw with the 2 embryos that remained from those that were fertilized by regular IVF, an 8B and 5BC. It seemed really questionable, though, whether the 5BC would even have a decent chance of surviving thaw. I still find it odd that they bothered to freeze the 5BC at all. Instead, they decide to thaw all 3 of our ICSI embryos, which were originally rated 8B, 9B, and 9B. All three survived thaw, but not without sustaining battle wounds: one 9B became a 5B, one 9B became a 7B, and the 8B became a 6B. Since none of them survived fully intact, we decided to transfer 3.

To be honest, I had a pretty naive and uninformed view of the thawing process - I thought the embryo would either thaw intact (a viable embryo) or not (a non-viable embryo). I was oblivious to all of the shades of gray in the thawing process - that some of the cells could die, but that if over 50% of the cells remained alive, the embryo would still be considered viable.

No one told us the embryos looked good or said we had an excellent chance or anything like that. Honestly, I don't think our chances of a live baby from this cycle are that great but I always have to keep hoping that this is the time that things will be different...

23 comments:

  1. Behatzlacha honey! Crossing my fingers for you!

    xoxo

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  2. I hope this is it for you, lady!!!!! Sending positive vibes your way :)

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  3. sending you lots of happy thougts! i'll be keeping my fingers crossed.

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  4. I've got my fingers crossed for you!

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  5. Fingers crossed for you x x

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  6. Sending lots of sticky dust! I hope this is it!

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  7. Keeping my fingers crossed!!

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  8. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you as well. Hoping this 2ww goes by quickly and ends with a happy BFP!

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  9. I have everything crossed for you. I hope this is it!! Snuggle in tight embies!

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  10. I hope this is it for you too!!! I'm crossing my fingers.

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  11. Thanks for all the good wishes, guys!!

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  12. The 7B sounds really hopeful though, it is a good embryo. All you need is one. In fact, it is best if it is only one that takes. I always prayed for singletons. Twin pregnancies are so scary for me... Good luck!

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  13. oh... they don't know what will stick and what won't, so just concentrate on sticky, grow-y thoughts!

    All the best, Jem.

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  14. Everything's crossed for you!!!

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  15. I'm rooting for you! I hope it's OK that I'm rooting for 1-2 of your frembies to stick (3 is a lot!) :) I will be checking for updates. Fingers, toes and eyes crossed!!!

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  16. I'll be thinking of you and your three embies! I hope that at least one of them sticks!!

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  17. Thanks ladies! Yeah, I am definitely not hoping for triplets...it just feels wrong to outright say or think that I want one of the embryos not to make it, you know? (Not like my preferences make a difference here - I think the chances of all 3 sticking given their quality after thaw is extremely extremely low.)

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  18. I hope this works for you.

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  19. Thinking of you with my fingers crossed!!!

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  20. best of luck to you and hello from iclw. i was just in your shoes about a week ago so wishing you plenty of nice distractions to help you through the tww

    www.faithsseed.blogspot.com

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  21. Congrats on being PUPO and good luck with the 2WW! Fingers crossed for you!

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  22. Love the title of the post...keeping my fingers oh-so-tightly crossed!

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