Jan 28, 2011

I am a delinquent blogger, IUI#4 is done!

Thank you so much for all of the well wishes over the past week! I apologize that I haven't been better at updating. We did our IUI on Wednesday morning, though based on the complex logic puzzle that exists only in my head and consists of all types of crazy, I am unsure whether the timing was really okay. If AF arrives 14 days past the date of IUI or better yet, I am pregnant, we will assume that it was okay but if AF comes 10-12 days after my IUI, I'll have my doubts about the timing.

We did have TI the morning before IUI, so perhaps that could help the timing issue, if the timing of IUI was indeed off. Speaking of which, I know it's a little (read: extremely) personal, but our sex life has really been a disaster since I got pregnant in October. When I was pregnant, I never wanted to have sex, and then when I miscarried, not only did I not want to, but I couldn't. Since then, Y gets so stressed out and nervous about it, performance anxiety becomes a problem and then I can't help but feel rejected and "gross" (it doesn't help that IF has already made me feel ugly, untouchable, and angry at my body).

While I only had one mature follicle, we got another excellent count for IUI this cycle. Y gets embarrassed when I talk about his super swimmers, so I will just leave it at that:) I wonder if they'll bump up my Puregon dose next cycle. I am not feeling so hopeful about this cycle but I am kind of at peace with that. In the past, I feel like I have spent so much time actively fighting against my hopefulness so that I wouldn't be disappointed. Not being so hopeful makes me feel much calmer and more at peace - does that make any sense?

13 comments:

  1. Good luck!

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  2. I hope this IUI did the trick! I know all too well what you mean about agonizing over the timing. After a stressful IUI last cycle, I'm pretty certain that my timing was off. It's such a disappointment. FX that your timing is perfect and Y's super swimmers flock to your egg! :)

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  3. Good luck!!!
    I have my iui today and tomorrow and the timing worries me too. I just triggered this morning.

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  4. IF messes with everyone's sex life. I can't remember the last time we did the deed.

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  5. Here from ICLW. It does make sense that being less hopeful is making you calmer. Congrats on the IUI and good luck!

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  6. It makes total sense!! I do the same thing!!!

    I hope you get your baby this month. I understand the whole sex life thing. I feel the same way. DH has been not in the mood (tired) all week and I'm like I don't think I've OVed yet come on! AHHH TTC!

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  7. It makes total sense that if you're less hopeful you'd also be less stressed out. It must be frustrating to worry about your timing being off.

    I really hope this cycle works for you!

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  8. one is all you need. really. good luck!

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  9. Wishing you all the best with your cycle.

    *hugs*

    ICLW #56

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  10. Good Luck! I'm in the middle of a 2ww for my first IUI. I swear this is the longest two weeks ever!

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  11. Hey! Thanks for your comment on my blog. I hope they did get the timing right and wish you a lot of luck with your cycle!

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  12. I have so much hope for this cycle for you! Also, IF does a serious number on everyone's sex life. It's one of the worst parts of IF - it just robs you of your sexy feeling, and hurts the guy too. I'm sorry, but please know you're not alone.

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