an absence of something

I have just been waiting...waiting to feel something, anything, a twinge or a cramp or some slight indication that our embryos are still with me. As usual, nothing. I think that maybe those little embryos just got tired of cell division or whatever it is that usually happens to them. I know anything is still possible - still, the one time I was pregnant, I had so much cramping with implantation, I find it very hard to believe that I won't feel anything at all if something is trying to implant. I have been so sad this weekend. I feel like I already know the answer. I hope so badly that for once, I will be wrong.