Feb 23, 2012

bed rest, day 10

Yesterday was my first foray into the outside world since getting home from the hospital. Wednesday is my appointment day. In the morning, we went to the MFM and did an ultrasound. There is still an area of bleeding. It is a little smaller than the initial area of bleeding when my last bleeding episode occurred, but I wish it was a lot smaller!

I am doing my best to drink lots of water, take my vitamins, eat well, and rest up in the hope that this damn thing will be reabsorbed and that the separation will heal. Today is my 10th day of bed rest. Honestly it is not so bad so far, if only because it is for a super important cause and I feel like a woman on a mission. I am trying to pace myself like this is a marathon - I pray that these babies will keeping baking for several more months.

We are still grappling with the move for the fellowship. My general feeling is that it is probably best to stay put in Israel for the long-haul now. I am more concerned that the stress of the move could tilt an already precarious situation in the wrong direction than actually going into PTL during the 12-hour flight.

The doctor did say if we are still committed to the move before the babies come and things are stable at 21-22 weeks that might be the golden window to fly. His reasoning was pretty morbid - if something catastrophic happens at that point, there is nothing we can do for the babies anyway, whereas if something happens at ~23-25 weeks, obviously there is something to be done. I try not to think about stuff like that too much, but my hunch is we will probably end up staying here and not flying at all.

Honestly, I think I am too scared to take the risk of flying even if the NICU care might be better in Toronto. It's a complicated decision, and I don't think we are going to be able to make a call on it until the time arrives.

After the MFM, I had an appointment in the afternoon with the hematologist. There are some platelet function tests that I did a few weeks ago that I need to repeat again next week. It's a little annoying they weren't repeated while I was in the hospital because the tests are only done at the hospital and only during certain hours and the hematologist needs to draw them himself. The main goal at this point is to develop a safe plan for my delivery since it may be be complicated by my fibroids, the placental issues, and my bleeding issues.

I am really trying to be more positive about everything. I got so down last week and I was really focused on my worst fears. Thinking about the babies as outside babies who will grow and thrive really helps me and I am trying to overcome my fear of looking at baby stuff. Honestly, spending some of my time looking at cute baby things online makes me feel better about things.

If anyone has any book/tv show/movie recommendations, I have plenty of time on my hands:) So far, I have been watching lots of Community and Party Down, two sitcoms I never got into when they came out.

10 comments:

  1. I have been following you and am also pregnant with twins. I am praying for you and those babies!! I suggest watching Homeland. We just started watching it and its a pretty good show!

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    1. I recently watched the 1st season of Homeland. I agree - I think it's an awesome show. I really hope the 2nd season comes out soon!

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  2. I'm sorry your having trouble trying to decide if you should move. I think you should move it'll be way easier pregnant even high risk then with two new babies. Good luck babe!! Hang in there!!

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    1. Yep, the move is a million dollar question. Maybe in a future post I will outline all of the pros and cons and see what everyone thinks! There are so many different considerations (and of course the possibility that it's a moot point and I will never be stable enough to fly before I deliver).

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  3. Thinking of you on bed rest! I know this time has to be scary and boring, all at the same time!!! Hope this time goes by very quickly for you and those little ones!

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    1. Alex - Thanks for the good thoughts. Scary and boring pretty much sums it up. Too bad I don't have a time machine to take me forward 3 or 4 months (but only if there is a good outcome - praying that there will be!).

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  4. I'm so sorry youre on bed rest, though it seems that you are handling it quite well. I keep trying to remind myself that this is a marathon, not a sprint! Thank you for your kind words on my blog. I am definitely praying for you and your babies, too. IF and high risk pregnancies are pretty awful things to bond over, but reading your posts makes me feel a definite sort of kinship with you. Hope that makes sense :) I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts!

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  5. I am glad you are taking good care of yourself and bed rest isn't going too bad. I'm sorry you are dealing with trying to figure out when and if to fly. I am glad your Dr is giving you a plan to think about. Keeping you and your babies in my thoughts and prayers.

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  6. I'm glad you're trying to keep on the positive. I do have a show recommendation. I don't know if you have HBO but there's a series on it called Game of Thrones. I really didn't think it would be my type of show but it's easy to get into. You can watch the old episodes online and the whole first season is out. Hour long episodes help to pass the time ;)

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  7. I'm glad that you are able to focus on staying positive with the bed rest. I like the thought of it as a marathon.

    If you've never watched the British show Coupling, that's a great one. I'm not sure if it's available on-line or if you'd have to get the DVDs. But, it's one of my favorites -- one of the very few shows I've ever bought and watched repeatedly.

    Thinking of you and hoping you stay occupied and well.

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